The Q&A Series, #1

Hello,

I stumbled across your journal by accident (actually someone on a blog I read was complaining that you had "stolen" their format... hahaha), and have been very interested to read about your life experiences, which are very different from my own.
 
My questions are these... what sort of physical fitness do you practice and what kinds of exercises and diet are common among the women that you work with?  Also, I was wondering how you keep so cleanly shaved?  Do you wax?  Leave it to another girl to ask, but I can't help but wonder how you girls stay so smooth.  I always get bad razor burn when I shave the bikini area.  Any tips you can share would be appreciated.

My favorite type of physical fitness would have to be Yoga. I love the mind/body connection that you get from Yoga and I find the atmosphere to be extremely sexy (well, at the least at the studio I go to . . . 8 limbs). In addition, I try to walk as much as possible (I don't own a vehicle). I'm not sure what the other girls do for exercise. If they read this, perhaps they can comment. I think they maintain their figures through moderation (in all areas). They also have youth on their sides. As far as diets, I am vegan and several of the other girls are vegetarian.

In regards to the shaving question, I don't think any of the girls wax. I just use a regular razor and shaving cream . . . nothing fancy. The secret is to make sure that your razor is sharp and that you shave often. I also suggest that you always shave with water and shaving cream. Your hair down there also grows in different directions . . . so you may have to experiment to see which direction you need to shave to minimize in-grown hairs. When I first started to shave, I did have problems with razor burn. However, this stopped after a couple of months. I think your skin is extremely sensitive down there and there is an adjustment period that has to take place. I'm sure this process could be shorter or longer, depending on your skin type. Also, applying some aloe vera after shaving will help too.

Good Luck!!
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What do the People / Girls there think of the picture taking and the
weblog?

How did you get started with the whole weblog thing?

I think most of the girls at Fantasy like the idea of the blog and enjoy having their pictures on the website. I try to make sure the pictures are tasteful and not too revealing. I also try to minimize nudity as this is not the intent of the website.

I think the girls trust me to tell our story in a true, but tasteful manner. My hope is for people to see that we are just "normal" girls, making a living just like everyone else and that the work we do has some redeeming quality.

Some of the clerks and janitors know about the site too and even enjoy reading it themselves. However, management hasn't found out about the site. I'm not sure how they would feel about it. I guess I will worry about that when that time comes.

I was introduced to blogging by Dr. Menlo, who is also my bf. In addition to Peep Show Stories, he hosts several other wonderful sites . . . check out Abuddhas Memes, Le Blogeur, Kurt Nimmo's Another Day In The Empire, Thumbmonkey, Dr. Menlo's group blogAmerican Samizdat, and, of course: Sensual Liberation Army.

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Dear Pagan aka Natalia,

I have two questions.

1) You are in the business of arousing (mainly) men. And looking at the
photos on your site, you are rather good at doing that. So I was
wondering - are there men who get so excited they don't seem to be happy with
the services you provide, ie who really want to touch want they see?

If so, how do you deal with this kind of demand?

Are you ever tempted to follow up on any of such proposals? Or does
professional ethics exclude any follow-up interaction so you don't even
think about it at first place? Aren't your partners jealous that, at some
point such interaction might occur despite best intentions by all
parties - after all, it's nature (in the widest possible definition) that
you're playing with. Isn't that like playing with explosives sometimes?

There are many customers who try to solicit our services outside of work. These customers do enjoy the show, but are curious if we do any work off premises. I do not provide such services and have not been tempted to change my mind. I know what my limits are, but do respect women who may decide this is o.k. for them. If a customer asks me if I escort (or whatever word they may use) I politely tell them that I don't . . . that it is not for me. The men really don't push me further. They might say something like, "you know, you could make a lot of money," but that's about it. I do not get offended. This is part of the business. If you can't handle men asking you this from time to time, then this job is probably not for you. Anyways, most of these guys come back and see me again even though they know I won't go any further. As far as my boyfriend getting jealous, I try to talk to him as much as possible about work. We have a good relationship and usually do not have any problems. He is very sex positive and was actually the person who introduced me to the industry. Anyways, you are probably more likely to cheat with a co-worker at your regular office job, than cheating with a customer who comes in for a peep show.

2) Also, I've been wondering if there is a difference between the people's
attitudes towards your occupation in cyberspace and in real life. I
mean, do you get the kind of admiration and affection your readers show in
real life, too?

Or - which would be my best guess - is admiration for your sex-positive
and open-mindedness something that can only flourish in cyberspace,
given the bizarre "oversexed but underfucked" mainstream culture in the
US, this weird combination of Mayflower and Viagra...

I have to admit that not many people in my real life know about my job or the site. My family is pretty closed minded about the sex industry. The people in my life that do know have given me very positive feedback, but nothing like I have received from cyberspace. I have been overwhelmed by the positive response . . . thank God for the internet.






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Last chance to submit questions for this week's question/answer segment, which starts tomorrow (see post below).






The Technique

It seems surreal at times to think part of my job is to watch guys masturbate. I probably witness an average of ten guys masturbating a day (50 guys a week) . . . well, and then there's my boyfriend (heh, heh). Needless to say, I've learned a lot about male masturbation.

As penises come in all shapes, sizes and colors, the way in which their owners manipulate them varies as well. I have described some of these techniques as follows (of course there are many more):

The Thumper

This customer's technique is similar to that of the stroker . . . well, in the beginning at least. He starts by stroking his cock in a smooth and rythmic motion until it gets nice and hard in his hand. He usually stands very close to the glass so that his cock is within inches of it. The customer then starts thumping his cock against the glass sporadically. I am always taken back a little by this as the thumping makes a loud reverberation and the plexi-glass shakes violently in its frame. I'm never sure how to react. I don't find this particularly sexy . . . watching the customer pull back on his cock and lunge forward as the poor thing slams hard onto the glass. I respect that he finds pleasure in this and try to seem somewhat responsive.

The Slapper

The name slapper pretty much says it all. While the customer strokes his cock, he likes to give it a nice slap here and there. He usually slaps his cock on one side, strokes it a little, and then slaps his cock on the other side. The slaps are short and direct. When I see the slapper, I can't help but think of the guys at the gym who slap each other to get pumped up.

The Stretcher

There are different variations of the stretcher. There is the customer who likes to pull and stretch his penis vs. stroking it to get it hard. Once it's hard, they usually go back to the stroke. I don't think it's as easy to stretch a nice hard cock. Then there's the customer who likes to stretch the hole of his penis . . . I mean really stretch it so that you can see inside (even if you don't want to). Sometimes they open and close their hole to make it look like it's talking. It reminds me of playing with one of those small oval rubber coin holders. The kind where you can squeeze the sides and pretend it's talking.

The Multi-Tasker

The multi-tasker is the customer that likes it all. He has one hand on his cock and the other hand is either massaging his balls, pinching his nipple(s), or playing with his ass. All the while, he is talking nasty to you. Sometimes this customer brings in dirty magazines or toys, i.e., butt plugs, carrots, anal beads, etc. Or, the customer might be into ball bondage and may come in with a rubber bands around his balls. The multi-tasker is very creative and interesting to watch. The show is usually more about waching him vs. him watching you.

The Restrainer

The restrainer is the customer that comes in and masturbates (usually using the stroker technique), but does not allow himself to come. Most of the customers that restrain are doing so for spiritual reasons. They are saving up their sexual energy. I just had a customer in the other day who seemed to be enjoying the show, but did not come at the end. I told him I was sorry he didn't come and he smiled, holding up his necklace, which had the Om symbol on it. Other customers are married or have significant others who they are saving their orgasms for. I think the restrainers are sexy.

The Swinger

The swinger moves his hips in a circular motion until his cock follows suit. Usually, the swinger does this at the beginning of the show before his cock gets too hard. It's almost like some ritualistic dance that he's performing for me. I notice the customers who are into the swinger technique often take all of their clothes off in the booth. They seem to be exhibiting some sort of freedom of bodily expression.

The Stroker

The stroker is the most common of techniques. It is the use of the whole hand around the cock, moving up and down in a rythmic motion. The grip can be tight, loose, or anywhere in between. Most of the other techniques include variations of the stroker. I think I enjoy watching this technique the most. Not because it is the most common, but because I love watching a guy's hand wrapped around his cock, moving up and down. The movement is so sensual. I'm starting to tingle down there just thinking about it.

The Taster

The taster finds great pleasure in tasting his own pre-cum (or other parts of his body for that matter). He wants to shock you. While masturbating, he often stops to squeeze the tip of his cock until the pre-cum bubbles out the tip. It sits and glistens there for a moment and then he swoops down to fetch it up with his finger, bringing it up to his mouth. He then looks you right in the eye to see your reaction before licking it off his finger. Some people may find this disgusting, but I don't. I think you should taste yourself . . . at least once.

The Squeezer

The squeezer likes to squeeze his cock and/or balls while he masturbates. He usually strokes his cock up and down and gives it a nice squeeze at the top. The head of his cock bulges out from his tight grip and turns reddish and/or purple if he squeezes too hard for too long. Sometimes the customer squeezes his balls hard with one hand, while he strokes his cock with the other hand. I don't enjoy watching squeezing if there is discoloration involved, otherwise it seems pretty innocent.

The Tickler

The tickler likes to run his fingers lightly up and down the sides of his cock. He often uses just a couple of fingers to do this. I enjoy watching the muscles in his face tighten and relax in response to the sensation he is experiencing. If I get close enough to the glass, I can sometimes see goosebumps on his arms. Once in a while, a customer will bring in a feather to tickle his cock with. While the tickler masturbates, he often likes to talk about being restrained, while you tickle him. The ticklers are some of my favorite customers.

The Spider Monkey

The spider monkey has his cock in hand as soon as the money is in the machine and the window is going up. I think he is worried that he will not be able to come in the time allotted . . . so he is not taking any chances. It is full speed ahead from the very start. I wish he would relax and take his time . . . enjoy the show. However, he usually comes right away and sometimes, before I have even had the chance to take off all my clothes.

There are definitely more techniques than the aforementioned, but these are some of the most common ones I have observed.

What techniques have you heard of and/or what is your favorite technique?










Here's a nice and interesting e-mail from one of my customers. Thanks English Guy...

Dear Pagan,
 
Hi, I'm the English guy who got a show from you several weeks ago - it's taken me a while to find the website you told me about, but it was worth the wait. During the show we got to talking about fantasies of sex with a stranger. I started to tell you about telephone chat lines then we ran out of time.
 
The chatlines work like this - you call in and record a short introduction, then
listen to other people's introductions. If you like the sound of someone's introduction you
can send them a message, if they like the sound of your message they can respond. If you get on well enough you can connect one to one on the chatline, or exchange phone numbers and talk to each other off the line.
 
The advantage of the line is that you can be very specific about what you're looking for. By leaving an introduction that expresses your particular fetish you are narrowing down the field to those people with an interest in that fetish. Not everyone's on the line for sexual purposes, but a fairly good majority of people are.
 
Not everyone's entirely honest about who they are or what they're looking for, but with a little care I haven't often been disappointed when I met someone. If you go into the whole experience with an open mind and without too many expectations you should have at least some success.
 
The people on the line are an odd mixture - some are "professionals", some are just looking to pass the time, some are searching for their one true love, some are downright scary.
 
It's a great way to meet people and talk over details of a fantasy with them, without actually meeting them in person. For me, it doesn't really feel as though I've met them properly until I've met them in person so they're good for fulfilling my "sex with a stranger" fantasies.
 
An example of one "first time" fantasy I managed to set up when I was in the UK:
 
Clare and I had met on a chatline and spent a couple of months talking to each other before we finally decided to get together. We hit it off mainly because we were both looking for something more than "two people in a room and they fuck", we both had various fantasies and we were looking for someone to fulfill  them with.
 
Clare had a thing about blindfolds, not being able to see heightened the rest of her senses. We both had fantasies about sex with strangers - we'd had experience of ending up in bed with someone very soon after meeting them, but it still wasn't quite the same as getting into an erotic situation within seconds of meeting someone.
 
I arrived at her apartment one Saturday morning and rang the bell. She answered quickly and buzzed me in. She'd already told me about the layout of the building and I knew where to go  and how long to take getting there. I walked up two flights of stairs slowly to give her time to get ready. Her apartment door was cracked open, I entered and closed it behind me.
 
The bedroom was straight ahead, I walked in, put my bag down and looked in amazement. She'd said she'd find something special to wear and she had really gone to town. Black fishnet stockings, a garter belt, black thong panties, a lacy push up bra, bright red nail polish and lipstick, and a leather blindfold. Next to the bed she'd left two dildoes. She'd used these on herself when we were having phone sex, now I was going to get to use them on her in person.
 
I'll leave the rest to your imagination, but we had a really good time - I left without her ever taking the blindfold off so she knew what I tasted like, sounded like, felt like and smelt like, but not what I looked like. We met up "for real" later as well.

 
The two lines I tend to use in Seattle are Nightline and Live Links - they both advertise in the back of Seattle weekly. Just a warning - they can be horribly addictive.
 
I love "Peep Show Stories" - it's one of my regular places to check out now. Thanks for putting all the work into it.
 
Love
 
English Guy








(Azar)









Radical Women

Radical women are my heroes. Everyone one of them . . . from Mother Jones to Rachel Corrie.

I've had the pleasure of working with some radical women in the sex industry. The Lusty Lady was full of them. Many were vegan, didn't drive, wore thrift store clothes, and were extremely politcal. I was working at the Lusty during the last election and I remember a couple of the dancers wrote "Vote Nader" on various parts of their bodies and worked all day like that. The customers seemed to appreciate their creativity . . . even if they did not agree with their choice of candidate. I was impressed that management didn't make the girls take off the writing.

The San Francisco Lusty Lady has a lot of radical women there too. They are the only unionized peep show in the world. I recommend the movie "Live Nude Girls Unite," which is a documentary about the San Franciso Lusty Lady unionizing.

Unfortunately, the recent economic down turn has taken its toll on The Lusty Lady and the San Francisco location recently closed--or at least the former management blamed it on the current American economic state. However, I just heard from our friend Tommy Tompkins of the San Francisco Bay Guardian that the dancers bought out the owners and are due to re-open it shortly. Hopefully, the Seattle Lusty will hang in there.

When I worked at Exotic Tan, I met an incredible woman. She was an activist from Israel. She was Arab and sympathized with both the Israeli people and the Palestineans . . . although she despised the Israeli government.

She spent some time in the occupied territory and told me that I could never imagine how horrible it was there. She also described to me in detail how horrible it was when a suicide bomber killed himself/herself, along with several other people.

When we worked together, she often sat on the floor and I noticed that she rocked back and forth a lot and was quite jumpy at loud noises or sudden movements. I thought she might suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).

I only worked with this woman for a month or so. She was just in the states for a while visiting some friends. She told me that she dreaded going back. She was a Pro Dom (Professional Dominatrix) in Israel and told me that she and a partner (woman) had rented a space and started a small dungeon there. The business was small, but growing and she made decent money, considering the economy.

As I'm sure you'd guess, the sex industry is a lot different in Israel than it is in the states. She told me that she could be killed for what she did there and was constantly worried that her identity would be revealed (as she was also a public activist).

A couple of her clients were Israeli soldiers. She told me that one of the soldiers felt great remorse for the people that he killed. During one particular session, he wanted to be punished for the atrocities he had committed. He asked her to stick his gun up his ass, which she did.

There were other stories that she told me . . . some made me want to cry.

The last night we worked together, we didn't talk much. I walked her home after work and gave her a big hug goodbye and thanked her for sharing so much with me. Her eyes caught me off guard. They were so beautiful. I couldn't help but think of all the terrible images those eyes had seen . . . and were to see. I felt almost guilty for not experiencing such things.

How unfortunate that so many people suffer, while others are oblivious.










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(Abstract Destiny)



(Destiny)



(Destiny being silly on stage)

Destiny

There have been a chain of girls who have left Fantasy lately and I am sorry to say that Destiny has joined them.

I'm not sure of the reason . . . I just know that she wont be back.

Destiny worked for Fantasy off and on her entire adult life, which spanned an entire 5 years (18 - 23). She was a joy to work with.

Destiny is one of those girls that has so much going for her, but doesn't realize it, or doesn't care. It was frustrating working with her at times. She's so smart, talented, beautiful . . . but so unmotivated. I often fantasized about what I would do if I were her. She stands close to 6 feet tall and has a face of an angel. Many people have told her she could be a model or actress, but she has no interest.

Destiny does have an interest in music and used to bring in a mini musical keyboard. She would write songs in her booth and would try to compose music to accompany the words. She also liked to sing and would often ask me to listen to her and to provide her with constructive criticism. She had talent, but lacked discipline.

Everyone loved working with Destiny. She was extremely entertaining and she would do things that would make your sides hurt. On stage, she was especially silly. She danced with curlers in her hair, wore bizarre outfits, and moved around the stage in a sporadic and clumsey manner. She was rarely serious.

She often acted like an airhead with the customers. One time, Destiny was doing a show for some Asian men on stage. She turned around, pointing her ass in their faces, and said, "Do you want to see my ass talk?" She proceeded to move her ass cheeks with her hands as the Asian men looked on in horror. All the while, we were trying not to laugh . . . in utter disbelief.

I sometimes wondered what the customers thought of Destiny . . . if she scared them off, or if they found her entertaining on some level.

Destiny also pushed the limits in other ways. She had a love/hate relationship with Fantasy and thought they ripped us off. She found a way to roll up the curtain manually in the last booth. When management left (usually later in the evening) she would have the customer put all the money in the tip slot vs. the machine, and would roll up the curtain herself. The other girls didn't like this idea and thought we would all get in trouble so Destiny eventually quit doing it.

Towards the end, Destiny didn't come to work very much. She would show up here and there, but not very often. Eventually, I think she might have been termed.

Hopefully, she's off doing bigger and better things . . . pursuing some of her dreams.










(Pagan working on story)







(My Favorites)

Peep Show Music

At work, we listen to a wide range of music, depending on who is working. And to the person who asked if we listened to Madonna . . . no fucking way. (Well, unless it happens to be the "What the fuck are you doing?" remixes.)

There is a CD player/radio in the dressing room that we can use to listen to our music. I normally work with Girl during the days and Azar during the nights. Girl and I listen to pretty much the same type of music, which includes (but is not limited to) d&b, downtempo, jungle, etc.

Girl's favorite group is Depeche Mode. She has every CD they ever put out.

My favorite music to dance to would be anything by Massive Attack (except their new CD), Portishead, Kruder and Dorfmeister, and a new addition: London Elektricity.

I also bring in tape-recorded sessions of Expansions, which is a local radio show by DJ Kid Hopps. It airs every Saturday 9-12 p.m. and Sunday 8-11 p.m on KEXP. The show plays the latest in drum & bass.

Azar likes Industrial Goth (I think it's called), although she has some great 80's mixed tapes.

When we aren't listening to music, Girl and I will listen to NPR and in the evenings, I try to listen to Democracy Now! with Amy Goodman. Clear Channel sucks!!

Recently, management hooked up speakers on stage so that we would have to listen and dance to the music they were playing out front. The music they play out front is just music off the radio and they change the station depending on who's working.

The other day, the dial was on some God awful 80's soft rock station. It was nothing but Brian Adams, Phil Collins, Journey, etc. all day. The last straw was when Azar had a stage show and The Beach Boys were playing. After the show was over, she walked over to the speaker and ripped the wire out. "That solves that," she said as she walked off stage.

The next day, the Den Mother (that's what we call our new manager - an x-dancer who is 57) came in and asked why the music wasn't playing on stage. She walked over to the speaker and saw that someone pulled the wire out of the speaker. She got really upset and said, "Who the fuck has been messing with the speaker?" Everyone looked surprised and we all told her that we didn't know what happened. She put the wire back in and the music resumed . . . well, for a time being it did.

A couple days went by and the wire mysteriously came out again. So far, no one has said anything.

At The Lusty Lady, the girls could take turns picking out songs for the "jukebox". However, there only seemed to be about two girls that ever volunteered. There was also a box in the dressing room where you could submit song requests.

The jukebox played continuously for about six hours without repeating. The types of music ranged from songs by Patsy Cline to songs by Marilyn Manson. There were some songs that made there way onto every Jukebox. One of these songs was "I Wanna Be Sedated" by the Ramones.

The jukebox was changed once a week and it was a long week if the music sucked.

What song, or what type of music would you like to dance naked to?

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